another kind of post

I am standing now with this silent keyboard in front of me, having it like a best friend, and just letting things to move ahead, together with my thoughts. It's been so long since I allowed myself to day dream and to think of life in general; I just read some of your blogs guys and I found so much motivation and inspiration in them, I feel like I just woke up from a deep, deep sleep, with no dreams, no hopes and no life. I wonder how could I for almost 2 years only hear the news at the TV but never actually listen, how I met so nice people and never actually get to know them, how I listened my favorite music and never perceived its message, how could I just be so blind and death and insensible.

I was yesterday in the subway coming from the embassy and a young man, I mean around 40 years old, passed by me and he only had one leg, he was using those crutches for helping him walk, and I felt so much compassion for him, but in the same time I forgot to see things like, God, that was his LIFE, that was normal to him. I mean, must be so tiring to see people around you feeling only compassion when you have still so much to give to the world and you have such an amalgam of emotions to share. I do not know why am I writing this here, maybe because it impressed me so much, but yesterday I choose to put it behind like I do daily, as Bucharest is full with this kind of examples of just life.

When almost 10 years ago I had that awful car accident and my mom lost the ability to see with one eye, I felt like the world is going to be over. Now, looking behind, I understand that normality for her is to see with only one eye, to take care of her more carefully, to take medicines daily for keeping the ability of the other eye and to just look forward as she is only 45 years old.

I was thinking so much lately at what normality is, and I ask you guys, what is being normal?

In a world with so many discrepancies, with richness and with poorness, with so much technology and with so many in-capacities, what is normal? are you normal? is your life normal? God, I wish I have an answer to this question.

ending here now, aura